Date

 It is official that my competitor has won the game. He is now officially dating her, and I found out 2 days ago through the grapevine. Today, I decided to take myself out and went to the gym earlier with my acquaintance. I did not want to meet him if I had gone my usual timing. After that, we went to a cafe that I really wanted to bring my acquaintance there since he hasn't gone there before. When we stepped in, and was led to a table, I looked around, and yeah, what are the chances? I saw Hiro and the girl together side by side, overlooking the ocean. Her voice was really loud, so it was undeniable that I would notice them first.

I was aghast, and texted my acquaintance ''THEY ARE HERE'' and he looked confused. He mouthed who, and I side-eyed. Then he slowly turned, and saw them. Then he was like shit, and then he texted ''do you want to change'' and I said ''to where'' and he said ''idk''. That dumbass. I said nvm, fuck them, and stayed put in my seat. He asked if we should say hi, and I said do we have to. And he said seems appropriate to do that, and I was like let me mentally prepare myself. Then I heard my name being said, and we both looked up. I stared at him, he said ''your friends coming''. Guess she was asking Hiro to the BBQ that I initiated. I wanted to facepalm myself so bad. But I am pretty sure that after today, he would not come to the BBQ. 

My acquaintance walked up to them to say hi, and said he came with me. They both turned, and I pitifully said hi from my table, because I had no intention of getting up. Hiro saw me, and he bashfully said hi, and I could tell that he was really uncomfortable that I saw them. Then I continued to speak to my acquaintance like they didn't exist, but they left shortly after. I think Hiro initiated that. He looked very bashful like I caught them red-handed. I think he knew my feelings and hence he didn't like it. 

But I feel okay. Strangely, I don't know why, but I was not VERY sad. I was shocked and flustered, but now I feel okay. Maybe I have come to terms that I am not his type, he wanted someone chatty to carry the conversation, but I am not like that. So yeah, it is better for him to date her then. Since I don't want to become someone that I am not. 

I am at peace, still shaken that I had to bump into them today of all days, after only finding out 2 days ago. But I know that even if I dated Hiro, it would not have lasted because the way he acts, just walking straight ahead without being considerate to the girl behind, that is such a turn-off for me. I prefer someone who takes care of me, not like that. So yes, I think I did a very good job of protecting my heart by backing off in early Aug, so I am not as upset as I would have been. 

So yes, good job girl, you have really grown.