Exhaustion

I'm so weary. Am I improving? Or am I falling again? Why is it that everytime I feel that things are going right that everything has to go wrong?

I'm tired and my heart feels heavy. I just want to let everything go... sometimes I feel that I'm catching up, but something has to pull me back. It's always like this and I'm just so sick. Dear god I desperately need much much determination and strength to get through this tiring time. I beg you, just let me have hope. All I need now is hope that things can get better for the major examination that will determine my future in just one month time. Please.

Instead of saying that "I suck", it is better to say that "there's always someone better than me".

I want to make this journey fulfilling and I want it to have a happy ending. I pray for a happy ending.