Discipline

This is crazy. I must be crazy. It's only a few more days left to The exam and I am starting to have a crush on my primary school friend.

I'm crazy.

Today I felt happy but truth to be told.. it wasn't that productive. Maybe if I have questions to ask then I will study with him. His explanations are godly.

Anyway girl, this isn't the time to be thinking about such thing. I really felt sad that this acquaintance decided to u - turn. She decided she wasn't ready and I just feel so helpless. I thought she was on par with me? What happened?

And I question myself. Am I ready?

The answer is no.

What in the blazes am I doing? Nothing should stop me from doing what I must do. THERE IS NO TIME. I MUST DO WHAT IS IMPORTANT. My priority are all wrong. Guys should not stop me from getting what I want. I want to get into a course I can have fun, like drawing.

I must have the determination to turn away from everything. It can all wait till after The exam. But to be honest, I'm afraid that this friendship will slip away since it's very recently forged and I treasure him already.

GIRL. Do you want to end up regretting your results? As HY said, if you are fearful, you will be unable to give your best shot. If you give your best shot, what is there to fear?

I do know what went wrong. Now I need all the discipline I can master to study. To study and polish my knowledge and practise. It's time for crazy practise. I can do it. Maybe it won't be so well, but shoot for the Sun and you'll land among the stars even if you didn't reach the Sun. So my goal remains: all A. I'll strive my hardest during the next few days. Give my all. Fighting!