Internship

Today marked a month since I started this internship and so far, it has been very difficult in terms of politics and interpersonal communication.

I've been given peanuts to do at work and I spent 95% of the time there doing nothing. Literally zero things to do. It is a struggle for me to waste my time and I also can't while my time since the office is pretty small and my back is facing the entrance.

Anyway, I've gotten this impression since the first week that I'm slow and uncertain as compared to the previous interns. It's really not nice to hear that. I told my supervisor about my medical condition and for a time, we've clicked. After that, she didn't really care.

Gotta remind myself that work is work. In the real world, people don't care about your medical condition as long as you are competent enough to lighten their workload.

But experiencing really made me wonder; how many people with this condition actually were able to prove to their bosses without letting them know about the condition.

Today, I had lunch with two of my colleagues and they were incredibly nice. They said, love yourself before others can love you. If she were to care about this person, she wouldn't mind the condition. Anyway, it is truly heartening to hear that.

My insecurities really grow and I feel really frightened of the uncertainty in the future. But my friend told me to give this a chance which I agree.

My cousin told me some really cool advice: stroke the dog the right way. Do it the other way and the dog won't be happy. Sometimes you have to purposely please her so that the relationship can be better. Other than that, you don't have to repeat her instructions to clarify. You can repeat a keyword to clarify.