Love yourself, give yourself one more chance

I think I'm struggling with this sense of self worth and it's really hard. There's like a big hole in my heart which hasn't been filled up. Its like I'm falling back to the old times of fear and worthless. This internship really made me question whether I made mistakes that others should not have made. Is my mistakes really that bad? Why am I not allowed to make such mistakes?

I'm new right? Why am I being judged for making mistakes when I haven't had a chance to learn from them? My gosh. And they treat me like I should have known it because of my school brand equity. Its like I shouldn't made this kind of mistakes because the previous interns don't. I don't know how they behave, but they could have been the cream of the crop. They make me feel like they think its a mistake to hire me.

Its really sad and I feel like this kind of environment makes me close off. I can't bring myself out when I get these kind of vibes. So painful.

They don't take note of a disability. Please be mindful of what you say because it can really hurt.

I want to go back to the club. To interact with people my own age rather than adults who are impatient. I wonder how they would feel if their own children are being born the way I am, and treated the way I am.

Its an event soon and I have to breathe. I am wonderful. I am great the way I am. My character makes people like me which is why I have friends. I may not be the most outgoing person, but I care. I will help you because I want to, not to take advantage of you. I promise to be kind always for there are people who may be even lonelier than me. I am good looking. Love yourself, give yourself one more chance. You deserve it, and only you can give yourself a chance.