So I am gradually starting to see more of my precious friends get attached, and I'm sincerely happy for them. There's a guy here that is not too bad, and I wouldn't mind dating him to get to know him better. Like for fun, no strings attached, just to see if we fit, and so I wouldn't need to get hurt if we actually don't work out. We could remain friends, in my opinion, cause he doesn't seem to be that sort of person that would avoid you.
Anyway, I just feel a slight tinge of loneliness; could be because of the pressure I'm starting to feel from my family and friends. And I can't forget about Him. The very first guy I felt this feeling of unconditional love towards. Sure, I had crushes before, but this was not like the previous crushes.
I'm quite certain I really did love him, even though it was not reciprocated.
I hadn't felt this even when I'm with other guys. I am trying to move on after the heartbreak I had about him (and I thought I did) but the sadness from that day still lingers in me. And yet, I still can't forget this feeling of love and joy back then. When our eyes met. When he talked to me.
He could have been the right person for me, but we just met at the wrong time.
I just wonder if I could ever feel the same way towards another guy... I just hope to date a guy soon, just to find out who would be suitable for me, and to really move on.
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