I'm in the middle of my exchange overseas and to be honest, I'm so glad to be away from insufferable/ toxic people back in my country. I really appreciate the idea of independence, it's being so empowering so far. I do have the ability to make judgments (even though I made mistakes here and there) and the discipline (somewhat?) to carry out the activities I want to do.
But what really drives me nuts is that my parents expect me to report every single detail to them. They say I don't care about easing their worries etc; but the thing is that I do! Not everytime, but that's the whole point. When I get a partner, am I supposed to tell them every single details? When I get married and move out? I understand their concern to a certain extent but I really wish they would trust me more, and not worry even if I don't reply them. I even take the initiative to call them?
If they keep asking me to fill them in every single week, what's really the point of going exchange? It's to put a wall, they can't see me all the time. In the future, there'll be many instances where I'll do things without telling them; this is adult stuff.
I have the right not to tell them certain things already, this is the time for them to get used to it. I'm not going to be swayed by his "guilt-tripping" as he always does. It's my life, and they have their lives. They have controlled enough of my life.
If you can't see or hear me, you just have to let it go and trust me unconditionally. Every other week, we can catch up, but please, not every single week... I'm sick of it. I rather be here, away from them for another year or something.
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