Worries

 I'm just a bit worried about our relationship. Generally, I feel that he is a good boyfriend. He has been pampering me with a lot of sweet words. For example, last week I had asked him how he felt about our 2 months together and he said, "The more I get to know you, the more I like you." 

/cues heart melt/

I think what he lacks a little is empathy in terms of situations like if I'm having pains (but he is super considerate about my hearing, which I'm quite happy about). I guess it was touching when he brought an extra bottle of hot water just for me when he knew I was having cramps.

While he doesn't really give in to my whims (I.e. I asked if we could go to eat ramen, he would suggest another place, but that's fine because it could be that he wasn't up to it), he loves to ask me for photos, etc. 

Haha, sometimes I think I pamper him more than he pampers me. But I like how he cuddles me, and showers me with words of affection.

I guess there won't always be equal effort on both parties. Although it is ideal, there will be times that I would put in more effort, or he would put in more effort. 

I like him, but I don't think I can say I love him. It would sound very forced. I don't know how much I like him, but I still adore him. I know he is loyal and dependable.

It's fun to bully him, but sometimes I feel that he is really quite smart and I would start to feel a bit inferior. 

But yknow what? 

I have seen much more things than him, and I've been through more harder things than this, which makes me who I am. He is a small part of my life now, but when the time comes, he'll gradually become a bigger piece without me doing anything.

Perhaps it is time to meet his friend, just to know how he behaves around his close friend and so that I would have more confidence in him as a person. 

I just know he would put on an extrovert personality around his friends, but I'm unsure about his friend. In fact, I'm worried that the friend would judge me and let him know about what he thinks of me. And if he has a bad impression of me... gg. 

But again, bad impression doesn't mean anything. I'm just worried what if I can't get along w his friend? I wouldn't want my bf to be stuck in the middle of the two of us. 

While I should be nice to his friends, at the same time I want to be who I am, so they can accurately evaluate if we are compatible in the long run since they would know each of us longer. 

But again, I just hope my hearing would not put his friend off, and i hope the friend has the patience to get to know me better before putting forward any words about me to my bf. 

Also, I'm worried about the living habits of my bf, and if we live together, would it be a deal breaker? I think it is best if he comes over to see how I live, so he will know what he is getting into and what kind of expectation I would have.

Sigh, one thing at a time!