Fate

If we are really fated, our paths will cross many times :-) I'll put my faith in Fate. I'll leave our relationship like this because even I'm not sure what it really is haha oops

And the world hums

Hey everyone, how are you guys? Haha I did okay for my major exams and is now posted to a new college! I had to appeal though )-: But its alright because I got to make even more friends (even though I sometimes miss my friends at the previous college a lot). I sometimes think of it as fate because really, I realised everybody in my orientation group is linked to people I know previously.

Also, I think I might have been holding onto the past too long so I really should let it go since I'm already in this college.

But sigh, I'm driven mad. The syllabus is so different and I'm struggling to stay afloat. Even my CCA is not really going to help me relax. And I'm experiencing the worst feeling ever. I've broken a promise I made to my friend and, I don't know, trying to make up for it seems like a really bad excuse for breaking it. I feel so wretched now because well, I really like him as my friend. And I think he was looking forward to the promise I made with him and oh my god, I feel like I've rejected everything he asked of me. Oh my god. What on earth should I do?

How can I make up to him? I feel like a really bad friend. And he's one of the nicest friends I've ever met. He deserves someone better than me. So what should I do? I treasure our friendship a lot. Ranting because I have zero clue. Oh and I know he's already doing his utmost effort on his part to keep in contact with me and I really really appreciate it and now this. I think he's really angry because whatever I asked of him, he has done it for me. And yet I couldn't do such a simple act for him.

Such a horrible person I am.

On an entire note aside, everything moves very fast. I'm suddenly in a whole new environment and I've become quite uncomfortable. I cannot be myself because I suddenly don't know how to express my opinions. Everyone seemed to disregard mine so.. I cannot remember how I used to be like in the past. I can't seem to reach out for my inner self and tell myself that I'm unique. Sometimes, I feel like I'm trapped in an empty shell. Where am I?

Beautiful Opera Song by a 9 year old child

Hello! It's been a long time hasn't it? My major exam results will be released sometime next week and I'm really scared and nervous about it! I'm least confident in like, english, social studies and perhaps, chemistry. Anyway I was surfing the internet (kinda) and heard this beautiful song. I was seriously blown away. It's incredible and I feel so happy for the girl (Amira Willighagen) for being able to work towards fufilling her dream. She deserves it!

Stunning. I do agree with the public that her voice is like an angel. It's so seriously beautiful. Please listen to it. I still have chills down my spine :-) Amira, you have a new fan here!!! Fighting!

Oops perhaps I'm lagging behind. She apparently won the Holland's Got Talent! CONGRATULATIONS!! FIGHTING again! Would love to hear more opera music from you!!

Great Teacher Onizuka

Man, I got to love Great Teacher Onizuka!! He is like a symbol of freedom because he's so honest that he can't be tied with anything, including education. He also treasure the right things like friendships and also know that having fun is an important thing in life :) I really liked it when he said that you can read with textbooks but you can't learn to have fun! Like, to have fun is to experience it. I realllyyy like him!! Like his reckless ways of helping his students hahaha! He's like an inspirational guy that makes me feel what a teacher should do heehee xP I might become a teacher like him if I can but probably NO.

Impossible for me I think. 

Oh and I saw this person put this video and said that it could be like how Ryuji Danma and Nagisa Nagase sped down that uh, Shinjuku line? I don't know what is the name of that line O: But its really great! I could really feel the thrilling sensation!! 

Ahhhh it looks so awesome!! I'm so gonna try living in Japan :D Like, an exchange program? I really want to try out myself what it's like to live in Japan hehehe

Hmm and this is the last page of GTO. I really cried myself to sleep hahaha the manga was way too good!!

Those who haven't read it, I won't spoil it hahaha but I think this is a must-read manga too :D GTO was so good that there's so many series/spin-offs/dramas after that. Like uh, Shonan Junai Gumi, GTO shonan 14 days, and... Bad company! And there's the 1998 drama and 1999 movie!! Yup. And I heard there's a new one called GT-R aka Great Transport - Ryuji. Ryuji is Onizuka's best friend so yup, I'm looking forward to it!! :DD

End of spazz. Pardon me. Just had to let the world know how good GTO is.

New Year's Resolutions

Well, I'm a day late for making New Year's resolutions but I figured that I should do it! Hmm, in 2013, I hope that:

- For heaven's sake, be more hardworking (Like, revise everyday's work)
- Study for all the damn tests
- Go out more with friends
- Be more confident
- More optimistic; move on even when you fail something
- Get great results like, at least 6A1s for O level
- Treasure every moment of my last year in school
- Treasure my friends
- Have a blast and not care about anything in the world.
-Sleep more!
- Maybe only catch up mangas on every Thursday? And not slack too much?

Hmm, this is awkward but when I was young, I used to believe that the end of the world was really in 2012 that I didn't think much about 2013. Now that's its here, its like a sudden hit on my chest. I can't believe that I am now experiencing 2013 since 2012 was my greatest fear in primary school. I'm quite lame huh... Well, time to move on! It's not too late to start anew. No, I mean, 2013 is the start of a new era :) A new year, new achievements, and the start of everything.

Just what am I to you?

Well. I feel kind of sad/miserable.

My results are kinda okay. Well, I am pissed about geog and chemistry (and a bit about amaths) but at least I didn't fail any exams? Except social studies. That was really horrible but I still managed to pass overall yay. Now I'm hoping my lit results for this exam is enough to pull up my lit score for the whole year and that my results for CA were enough to pull up my geog marks. Sigh.

Anyway, that's not the point of this post.

I am seriously wondering. What am I to you?

I've tried to ask my friends but they would usually try to avoid my question T_T I need to know whether I am selfish, egoistic person or what? I would like to change if I can help it (like, if I am really bad that people just cannot stand me). I try to access myself based on people's attitude to me but I really don't know.

Really. What am I to you?

My warped personality?

Hey guyss :) Well, nowadays I was thinking that my personality seems really really horrible D: Like, I am a cruel person and I know it sigh.. I see characters in books that are so kind that I'm wondering how it is possible to be like them. And I was wondering why I can't seem to be kind when my friends can be. And today my friend, Risako, told me maybe its because I am a sadist person. TA-DAH! The word I was struggling to describe my personality is this one! She's so smart.

Yes. I am probably a sadist person. And no, I am not a masochist. Are you kidding me. So yeah, I am glad I found the right word for my personality. I think its quite true. And sadly. I should punch myself a few million times.

And I'm a lobster.

She is a lamb. Well, today we did some personality test and there's a lion, lamb and lobster personality. Lobster is a rational creature (really?) and lion is the slightly aggressive creature. Lamb is the more submissive type.

Yay. I got myself a lobster. What is life. Hahahaha