Emotional dustbin

I think there's something weird going on. Why do I attract the strangest people of the opposite sex?

A friend asked me for my opinion regarding his emotional baggage (which I regretted asking) and it really made me realise that he was so emotionally clingy to me. It was not a good feeling; in fact I became frightened.

I'm just not prepared to deal with another drama (hence I put some distance and that led to this shit omg I guess it's like either way: one way or another, it will lead to trouble anyway so why bother thinking lmao). I am not ready to shoulder another person's emotions when mine isn't satisfied? Right now I'm just focused on being independent and liking myself for who I am. I am currently not interested in sacrificing myself for others yet like when they're pessimists. I'm not perfect myself, but it's time to stop looking back but forward. I'm more about improvements. If you made a mistake, reflect and pick yourself up.

I've gone through the tiniest fragment of the harsh reality; and it really discourages and saddens me. But give it time, and tell yourself that this is reality and you have to bear with it, and move on. Keep trying to get better than the you yesterday.

I cannot keep up with holding the negativity when it will affect me one way or another. So you ask me why I don't want to continue this friendship? It's because it takes two hands to clap. I cannot support you as a friend when you are not supportive as a friend to me. If it becomes one sided, its exhausting and I get nothing. Humans are like that. We need to get something out of the friendship. My good friends and me; we enjoy each other's company and humour, and same value roots. That's what I look for. We clearly aren't on the same wavelength anymore and it's hard to know you better. You don't bring up funny topics from class or even life, then what stories can you tell me? Nothing. And I tell you stories.

I'm tired of dealing with this shit. It's a waste of time and I might as well spend time alone. I get to do what I like and it's so much better.

I hope you don't think bad about this. It's just that I believe that every meeting has it's own meanings, led by fate. Some people or even friends leave you after they have fulfilled their purposes of teaching you something. I'm not the right friend that you would want to keep with you. You will definitely find better friends. Just take the cue, let things go when it's meant to be.