I finally got the ball rolling; but at the same time, I can't help but think if I'm making making a mistake.
Here's the pros and cons of leaving:
+ a seasoned mentor to guide me
+ a deeper dive into the area to know if it is suitable for me/ something I like
+ fast paced so I'd have to pick up a lot more things
+hard skill sets that is definitely required in the future
+ boss seems to be quite understanding
+ no right time to leave
- sacrifice sleep
- leaving a familiar work environment
- won't be able to see through a potential project (though it is a small part of my current BAU - which I hate a lot)
- critical time for team (I can only try my best to hang on, and tide them through this period)
- less flexibility; more at the mercy of others and also less independence
- maybe more milestones are achieved when I'm not there to benefit from.
I feel like I'm betraying the team; but I also feel like if I don't take the leap, I'll be wasting another additional year to learn the hard skills that I need for my future career. One more year means one more year of the same thing I've been working on; which I know very well that I dislike - except the new project I'm working on now.
I'll miss the team, they've been cool and genuine to work with; I won't be there to celebrate more milestones together. Hopefully I'll absorb everything I need, and then move on after 1-2 years back to client company.
It's normal to feel upset, to wonder if I should take back the resignation, but such is life. This article shows exactly what I feel: https://www.themuse.com/amp/advice/feelings-youll-have-when-you-quit-job-you-still-care-about
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