Spotting

 I don't think he's interested. He had never asked a question about me, and it felt like it was hard to continue the conversation. I don't know if it was like he didn't really put in the effort, or what.

But I wonder what I've learnt about myself. I think I'm... still attracted to grounded guys and i don't like it when guys are emotionally unavailable. I'm also observing my own behaviour, whether I'm able to hold my ground instead of obsessing. I think I'm able to pull back and do my own things. 

Am I comfortable with us just being gym buddies? I think it is more fun for sure. I wish we could just talk outside of gym, then maybe we could focus more on gymming. And not use the time to talk. I feel bad about it. 

I'm able to focus on other things like JPLT N3, SG trainings, house maintenance, ALT outings. I'm happy with that. 

I think he doesn't know much hence he can't carry the conversation...? Either that or he's shy..

But yesterday was the first time he spotted me in front of other ALT like lucas, but I wonder is it because his friend wasn't there. 

I think I'm also honing my own instincts; it's like energy sensing? 

But when I did the shoulder press, he spotted me, and held my elbow longer. Maybe he's just a really good spotter.